i veri long nv update this blog le.

i cant seem to let him go.is a MUST and i kno tt we will nv be together again.i am devastated to accept e harsh truth till nw.it will nv be e same again.everyone was there fer me, my friends, my family. and i reali thank dem fer tryin so hard to make me who i am supposed to be.BUT y cant he be there fer me?it has been four daes since we broke up.and am still strugglin to pick up e pieces myself.friends may be there, bt dey can nv be wit me fer 24/7.and i believe dey will be sick of me being so dwn some dae.cause wadever dey sae, i choose nt to listen at this stage.

u were e one who promised to face my fears wit me, yet i am nw alone to face my biggest fear.

u were e one who completed my life and allow me to kno wad is being happi all abt.

u were alwaes there, a phone call away when i needed someone.

u make me understand wad is true love all abt.

u change my pessimistic views towards everything into optimistic ones.

u told me tt nth was impossible, when u are around.

wit u by my side, saddness was redundant in life.

BUT

u nv taught me hw to face my WORST fears alone.

u nv taught me hw to survive emotionally, mentally and physically when u are no longer there on e other side.

hw is anything possible when i kno tt u are gone.

wads true love when u choose to leave me ultimately.

u nv taught me to be independent and alone.

u nv taught me hw to heal a broken heart and manage my tears.

i dun wanna continue writin cause i kno e pain will come all over again.no matter hw ppl judge u and tt e whole world is blaming u, i can nv bring myself to blame u.i choose to believe tt u have ur reasons in wadever u do.even to e extent tt e broke up was to e benefit for e both of us.tt is why i am feelin so confused and empty.waitin fer u is lyk hopin against hope cause u said ur feelings were dead fer me.bt i can NV let go. i cant find faults in u to make me forget everything.i simply jus cant let go when i kno is practically OVER le.can anyone tok some sense into me????i still choose to believe tt everything is a dream.and i wanna wake up smilin nt in tears every morning.









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