it was HIM...
+who made everything in life possible
+who gave me a chance to learn wad exactly is L-O-V-E all abt
+who gave in to me, each time i acted unreasonable
+who changed my perspective in life(frm being e once so pessimistic gal to a "YAY i am so happi everydae")
+who was able to tahan my tt 4- ever-enthu attitude on e fone
+who spent those veri LATE nites, tokin to me on phone on weekend(despite e fact tt he was veri TIRED)
+who was willin to change his sleepin habits jus to accomodate to e nite-owl-me
+who seems to kno EVERYTHING abt me (frm my fav colour, food, drink,to my fav number!)
+who sacrificed his personal time jus to spend more time wit me
+who was forever so understandin to my demandin needs
+who was willin to waste his time to watch a boring romance flim, when he can spend tt time doin his hmk at home
+ who had to bear wit my sudden cravings fer eggtarts in e middle of nite lyk-->2am
+who was there wit me to cope emotionally durin my family crisis
+who gave me a pleasant and veri sweet 17th b-dae surprise
+who lent me his ''bravery" in moments of fear
+who loved me more den i love my pink stuffs
+who can make me smile after a long dae at work
+who ensured me tt everything will be fine, each time i am discouraged
+who bot me out fer star-gazing when i told him i simply have this fetish fer stars
+who was able to constantly put up wit tt emotional- and- worried-ME
+who is e oni one who can put my worries aside and replace dem wit solutions whenever i am troubled
+who was willin to have a share of my grieve,disappointment, fears and anger jus to make me feel better
+who accompanied me home so often and became tt frequent passenger of bus 9, when he can jus take no. 17 home direct
+who cracked jokes jus to make my terrible dae a better one
+who elimates boredom when i told him" heys i am extremely bored lei! how??"
+who make me realise e importance of havin my family wit me
+who answed my qn of "wad ya doin nw huh?" w/o fail and delay
+who will risk paying his HP bills, each time he toks to me one fone when he is out and away
+who motivated me to help my mama more wit e housework and be tt good daughter
+who can make me feel so secure abt e future
+who was willing to crap wit me, though he was reluctant to
+who allowed me to feel lyk a princess( lyk the ones who-lived- happily- after in fairytales)
+who can make me stay up till nw(1.57 am), jus to spend an hr writing this entry

i can still go on.bt i kno i have to rest le.everydae slp less den 5 hrs a dae can??i pity e tired soul tt is within me who is beggin me to take a rest.


yupx,he was tt nice and perfect.tt's why i have nv blamed him fer wadever he has done to me.
(includin being cold and harsh on me. HAIS.) many times,i wanted to patch up wit him.bt i took e advice tt it will nv be e same again.it was fate tt bot us together and we parted on gd terms yupx.so certainly hope tt fate will bring us back some dae.abandoned e idea of waitin fer him, cause i believe tt everything happens fer a reason.at least i gt to learn alot and grow to be stronger frm this incident.and gt to realise tt my friends and family are such sweeties to be there fer me.=)
i will eventually let go some dae.i kno i can, and i wld.i wld no longer cry because is over.at least, my first relationship was wit a decent guy lyk HIM.i will certainly cherish those m-e-m-o-r-i-e-s and look forward to being friends wit him again.





missin him lots still