Saturday, April 1
is farnie how love can make gals as losers.
real, pathetic losers.naive and stubborn ones.
i am so tired.reali tired le.all these while i kept myself frm being occupied.thinking tt time will do e job of memories-fading.to force myself to believe tt time will HEAL.
yet, nth proves to be fine.
strong and okie on e outside.bt in actual fact, am still as fragile as ever in e inside.
when nite falls,can only choose to sob silently as e past becomes history and reality hits in.
ignoring wadever tthas happened,u choose to run away frm e things tt u shld do.
helpless,confused, depressed.
nobody seems to be able to help you.and u kno tt u are e only one who can make each day a better one.cause is YOUR LIFE.u gt to handle it somehow.
i dun understand WHY i am reacting this way.this aint me,e gal who refuses to let-go,move-on and get- it -over.is definitely sheer agony to go thru all these thingy soley and act tt u are this "i'm alright le lar" person.
been deceiving myself tt i'm doin fine all this while.e more i try to pick myself up,e more i realised tt i am fallin apart.is lyk u race up this fight of stairs to seek"hope", but u end up fallin down badly(judgin frm how high u actually went up ). *imagine me rollin down e stairs*
the mad rush of feelings is all over me once AGAIN.is nt jus him, is seems to be EVERYTHING in life.=((
现在，我不敢说我完全恢复原来的我，因为那是不可能的.
/12:07 PM
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