Wednesday, April 26
rainy days and chilly nites can fully describe my feelings.
am not my usual/happi/enthu self.chelsea say it is personailty clash.but den again why me?
have i made e wrong choice?
to enter poly and to eventually find out tt no one is interested in entering uni?
entering poly>>> a biggest mistake i made in life???.cause till now,i cannt find someone who can make me feel who i am supposed to be.
will everything turn out to be fine if i have headed majority's advice to enter JC instead??
::IF only i have entered JC,mebbe we wont have parted.
::IF only i have entered JC, i wont be a left-out cause by then i get to mug with everyone.
::IF only i have entered JC, i wont be worried abt my expenses and allowance.
::IF only i have entered JC, i will be able to find friends who i can clique with.(hw true?)
::IF only i have entered JC, i will be able to find ppl who are actually willing to study.
so many "if onlys", but nth can be changed le lar.
CHOICES-> forgoing e other best alternative.
u gain and lose smth in return isint?i chose to enter poly to pursue what i reali want.yet at e same time i lost e freedom of being who i reali am.=(
cant it be always sunny fer me huh?it has been pouring recently.and lyk e bad weather, i feel sucky and depressed.=(
i wan my coffee -caramel ice-cream!!!my polar egg tarts!!!i wan my friends back too!!
*protestin fer gd food to elimate my bad mood can?
/8:49 PM
mandy blogged.