Wednesday, July 19
as u grow older,
we are always told to manage our emotions properly
no matter wad happens.
and to handle dem wisely.
fer they are YOUR emotions ultimately.
i cant no longer manage my anger
till date.
is to the pt, where i am
"forced" to utter a word
of FUCK.
FUCKED UP.
FED UP.
FURIOUS.
MAD.
BOILING.
the list of alternative
fer ANGRY goes on.
PISSED TO THE PT
I FEEL LYK BRAWLING in BED
WHEN THE FARKING WORLD
JUST DUN UNDERSTAND
THE SHIT ONE IS GOING THRU.
what will ya do when somebody
treats u lyk a nobody?
how long can you actually put up
with someone who test ur patience
each time u struggle to just be nice?
i dislike/detest ppl who
show me attitude.
nt once.
nt twice.
is to the pt
off my limits.
wad will ya do
when ya OWN SISTER
dun understand tt u need the
BLODDY computer
to send the BLOODY
project over to ya friend URGENTLY?
wads worse is when
she complains and argue back
LOUDLY AND RUDELY
tt u actually hogged on the compuer
ALL the time?when she din realise
i had to USE the computer
FER those shitty projects?
while she uses it to log on MSN
and engage on online games?
how will ya react when ya happen to chance upon her blog
to find out that
she curse u fer abt 40%
of her blog entry?
"i loathe my sister veri veri much."
" she is farking irritating, and she think is
GREAT."
FARKING HURT I AM NOW.
WHEN U REALISED
HOW MUCH UR OWN SISTER
HATES YOU.
and i'm only quotin a small
segment of what she wrote.
FARK FARK FARK.
i'm totally crude wit my language in this entry.
fer tt's the only way
to express my anger.
is been long since i felt
boiling and pissed.
this time is to the
pt of tearing.
farking farked-up.
i kno i shldnt
be using the "F"
word so loosely.
apologize to whoever is reading now.
this feeling is more than just
feeling sad.
at least when u are sad,
u get to let it all out.
wad can ya actually do
when u are
deeply hurt and
ANGRY?
is the most ARGH
feeling u can experience.
u feel lyk scoldin
ABCDEFG!!!!!
!@#$%%^&**
slappin hard on those
ppl whom u bu shuang till their face turn red and swollen?
punching the wall till ur knuckles bleed?
slam anything tt is fragile?
i considered doin those.
bt i tot it was rather inmature acts.
cant seem to cool dwn.
when u kno u have to face
FARKING SHITS presently.
why me?
i always wonder?
why shld i be
feelin this way.
i can choose NOT to be
angry//furious/mad/pissed.
SADLY I DUN HAVE A CHOICE TO CHOOSE
HOW I WANNA FEEL.
*drag along with tears in heart and choking anger
/11:39 PM
mandy blogged.