Tuesday, August 1
i started the month of august
brawling lyk a big baby.
to think abt it,
i actually cried.
*countless sighs and hais
so much fer my 2006 resolution.(nt to cry fer the yr)
i felt useless.
fer i cried over
my results.
i gt a "D" grade.
and tt component worth solid 20 %.
am disappointed.
i put in so much
effort in preparation fer the
presentation.
i reali did.
is lyk u tediously want to
light up this candle.
to only realise
a small breeze is just
what it takes to put out that light.
is out before u can even react.
tt's how i'm feeling.
the vulnerabilty and helpless-ness.
=(
sigh.
things certainly have not been in my way
these few months.
i snap tt easily.
tearing and breaking down
clearly illustrates the
fragile me.
aint strong and
ever-going.
=(
blue.gloom.depressed
it has come the pt
i realised smth.
there's nth
left to stay happy abt.
nor is there any reason
to smile upon.
the happy
emo is so superficial
within me.
am nt being depressed
or negative.
is just smth i took
so long to REALISED.
my posts can be evident abt me
strugglin to achieve the "happy" me.
is a challenge fer me currently
to stay happy
or the least to smile
at each day's arrival.
i natw ihm bkac nac i?
/8:12 PM
mandy blogged.