Thursday, April 19
HAIS and SIGHS.
i dun lyk to be thrown outside of my comfort zone.
speaking of bad-luck.ARGH.
feelin blueeeeeeeeeee shit.
lyk totally rock-bottom mood.
HAI.=(
there's nth i can do.
nor is there anything tt can be done to make me feel
just a little happier.
it simply sucks when u have
to adapt everything frm scratch.
=(
lots of what-ifs and if onlys appeared in my mind.
UNCERTAIN is the keyword.
worried maybe?
it just feels really out-of-the place
when i no longer can meet
my clique at the bridge before lessons start
and goin out to cheers together
decidin wad to to get during breaks.
*teary-looked face
gonna miss them
cause i kno even with meet-ups and stuff
it wont be the same no-more.
when the wkload really hits us all.
sighs.
=(
*sulks
new company.
tt's wad i fear the most.
"learn to adapt and make new friends"
tt's wad my mama adviced.
bt somehow or rather it dint
seem convincin enuf.=(
i feel uncomfortable, or really UNCOMFORTABLE
when i no longer can be wit my friends.
one year of thick and thin together can.
i just want my fav-all-time company.
just when i gt to kno all them
better and when we can really jk
ard lyk some cuckoo shit.
i have to be out-of -the picture.
=(
i gonna miss khairah's
de-stressing jokes.
her motivating spirit to keep
goin on and nv to give up.
she taught me to take things
cool and steady.
and i must say i learnt frm her
to stop kan-chiong-ing fer once.
and just relax.
i must admit there were times
when there was misunderstandings
and i bet she felt bad when things din wk out among us 3.
still i love her!
amanda was really touched tt she was there fer me
when i encountered some kind of situation.
SHE WAS THERE with me being my banana friend
and me ranting to her how sad i was.
SMSs frm her were forever motivatin/emcouragin/farnie.
u just can feel tt she was concerned
and wanted to be there fer her dear friend here.
admire her fer being to able to draw soOOO well.
throw her paint and brushes, she
can paint a portrait of really pretty drawing.
throw me crayons, and maybe
i can draw u shrek of a 3 year-old standard.
how i met her: first dae of school, she was sittin at the bus-stop
and i just self-intro myself to her.LOL.
i bet she cldnt rem me nor my name tt pt of time.
she looked confused.real confused of wads goin on.
i remembered: the times when we sneaked out fer a movie and studied OB at starbucks.
the mixture of guilt and fun tt we shldnt be out yet we die die have to catch a movie.
tt kind of feelin was shared. (:
as fer meng yan.i love
her fer being tt angel in our gp.
she is always so caring and considerate towards
others.she put others before self
even if it means to be an disadvantage fer her.
i really admire her fer
being so ever sincere.
one can almost feel her utmost sincerity deep dwn frm the heart.
and i gonna miss those times when i cld tok
to her non-stop,
she is one great and understanding listener.
it is those "certain" topics
tt she just simply cld understand and
make me feel tt "i'm nt alone" those
type of feeling.
how i met her : went home together on bus 23 one fine
dae after sch.we toked a little
and a little became a lot when she told me
smth shockin.frm there i became nosey and requested her company
to the breadshop.so tt we cld chat more.LOL.
i remembered: the time when we chatted at the sixth-floor comfy sofa, while waitin
fer the dreading break to end.where i told her almost bits and pieces of my randoms.
and time just flew by with her and her signature smile.
melissa.my sister-like friend.
from green tea to being pee-princess.
i gonna miss her company to the toliet.(sry if it sounds wrong,bt
as u grow older it seems tough to find a company to the ladies.)
and mel was the perfect company.LOL.
the way she lamed with me is wad i gonna miss abt her.
she is one who can really "entertain and give me face" pal whenever
i tell lame jokes or act silly.
i feel comfortable with her ard too.
nt to mention i even dance with her during orientation okay.
how i met her: during orientation camp when everything was so
NEW.we managed to strike a conversation durin lunch.
and i remember me being stupid askin her questions lyk
"wad sec sch are u frm and where u stay huh?"
piang damm dumb.i vividly rem i kept starin at her
white necklace too.*giggles
i remembered: the time when i frantically called her
tellin her tt i msged the wrong person.it was preparation fer meng yan's bdae.
bt i kinda screwed up.stewpid me.she sounded "calm" enough to calm me dwn though.
slaps back to reality.SIGHS.
i love them ALL THREE in short.
best buddies in poly.
and i feel blessed to know them, to
have the chance to work with them fer projects.
i sound lyk i 'm leaving fer somewhere far
or change poly or some sort.
HAI.
bt i really feel blueeeeee man.
HOW NOT TO.
=(
=(
so near to claimin the label
of a "worried freak"
=(
*depressed
i so dun wanna to print out the
new timetable.
no sch fer me pls!
pre-sch fears.
/10:19 PM
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