Monday, September 10
why bother?
i always wonder.
u r indeed capable of makin me teary
on a mon morning.
i tried to fight those tears back
as the boarding passengers stared at me.
it hit me.tt familiar moody mood
and the i so-wanna cry-face.
with tt familiar tune playing on my ipod.
my dying to spill-out feelings started this day.
i was waiting.
waiting tt somehow,
the "u" tt i always knew will appear.
still.
u left.
without saying
a simple "take care"
or maybe a simple " gd bye."
isit so hard just to
say smth?
does it take a lot of ur time to do so?
u left just lyk tt.
u left me nth to cope with.
n i thank u fer tt.
times after times
i fought back wadever was said abt you.no matter
how negative each comment may be.
i always chose to have an "maybe he has a reason fer doin so" logic.
even when the truth was staring obviously at my face.
i chose to ignore and tot
i din have the right to bother
and care.fer our r/s din allowed me to do so.
still.
i care.
is because i do care
tt makes it saddy sad.
i gave myself too many excuses
to accept whos the real "u".
i feel stupidly stupid
to believe in u.
lies it maybe
i choose to believe them all these while.
chances tt i will nv be generous with
was given.
yet i ended up being
the foolish and naive fool.
the game was played.
n i lost.
fated it may seems
i chose to look it in another way.
it was by chance tt we met.
nv fated.u played fate the wrong way.
GAME OVER.
am over u.
i promise.
this shall be the last time.
shall live life the way it shld be and always be.
with smiles and nt tears.
fer i still have great friends to count on.(:
n i love every single one of u out there alright.
/9:52 PM
mandy blogged.