with each passing day,
i cant help bt think.
i am dying
both mentally and physically.
"stop wk la."everyone will say.
u cant stop halfway
when u signed a contract
n
bloddy hell u just
completed training can ?


from a quarter now
down to almost half my "energy"
level is being sucked away.


i shldnt be complainin
bt i feel sad when ppl ard me
r COMPLAININ i spend less time wit them.
den wad abt the time fer myself?
i hardly have the time to sit dwn n enjoy a show.
bloggin seems even harder fer me these days.
all the nice nice photos tt i wantin to share has nv been shown.=(


HAIS n SIGHS.
been a long time since i utter a deep n worryin SIGH.
i need my rest pathetically.
i promise to spend my weekends
with plenty
of sleep n nth else.
am tired out.
so so so tired.


on the other side.
wkin been a whole new experience fer me.
i meet new and friends tt i will nv forget.
n of course the experience tt
i learnt thru wking wit diff ppl is priceless.


bt sadly jugglin 2 jobs at one go is nv easy.
yes.rightfully.i can go home n rest straight after a long at wk.
but HELL NO.
i have to painfully force myself to practise my piano
pieces n scales.everyday.it just sucks.
n i am halfway comtemplating to give up.
fer my teacher is pushin me to my limits!argh.
i dun care if u tell me i am a loser
fer givin up easily n tt i shld persevere.
tt's bullshit.
try wkin fer 12 hrs a day n gettin
only less than 6 hrs of rest daily.
yeah i know.i have myself to blame.
i shldnt take so many things at one go.
wadever.


nobody seems to understand.
nt momma.(she complains tt i returnin home lesser fer dinners)
nt even my piano teacher.
they just make me view those challenges
as "the impossibles".
sigh.
m tired.
n freaking sad.
just bear wit me
with this complain entry alright?
i needa pour out those dreaddin worries.
must be the lack of sleep.=(