Monday, December 15
i always turn to best friend whenever i need to cry out loud.
i crumble in front of her always.
no matter how strong i may seem to be.
it is always to her, that i cry till my eyes hurt.
today.
w/o best friend's company.
i cried out louder n harder.
so bad tt i just wish i can
fall badly ill n not go anywhere.
the last time i felt like crying in public was
when ______ left.
this time with best friend departure.
i feel horrible.
i just cant stop those tears.
esp when i was on my way home today.
depressed.
my mood got rock bottom when i read this from bf's blog.
"Ytd's dinner was.. sad.
& I thought bestfriend would be coming down tdy but to my dismay..
Everything's sad now I can't find a happier word to replace it.."
i shld have rushed down yesterday
even if it means to be tired out.
i should have spend the night over.
to just be there.
i'm sorry.
*wipes tears off for the 5th time
if only i can tell u i'm really sorry this morning.
i really am, for not making a trip to ur house yesterday.
I have never felt so regretful ever.
time out.
it gets to the point that i am terribly sad.
and suddenly i dun look forward to xmas ever. ):
who would ever thought that it would hit me so hard.):
worst worst feeling ever.
i need someone to hold on.
):
/7:40 PM
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